Sigh

Depressed. Stressed. Simply not enjoying life. What I really want to do right now is get out of here, and not turn around.

Berkeley was never a happy place for me. From my first failed "relationship" to never happy roommate situations every single year. And yet I keep tricking myself by thinking it will be better the next year. And it never is. And now I find myself back in the dumps.

I'm getting so tired of drama. Drama after drama. My life is just filled with drama. And as much as I want to forget about the past, the past will never leave me. If I stay in Berkeley anymore, I will only be continually haunted by my wretched past. I seriously need to leave this place.

But I cannot just leave right now. My work is not done yet. The only thing left keeping me sane is my work. And I will not desert it. So, despite all my unhappiness here, I will fight. I will stay strong. Just one more year. And then I will leave this horrible place and not turn back. Because there is nothing here left for me. Not even a single friend (barely).

不管我到哪裡, 我總是覺得很寂寞.

怎麼辦?

Break

I am so over blogging....

...for now.

There are tons of things I want to write. But I'm back at the stage where I think about the things, but never actually write them down. Just no motivation I guess. And I have a lot of entries that I started and have never finished.

So I guess I'm going to be taking a break now. I will return when I find that motivation again.